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Pantas

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"Cha, Kemal mengajakku menikah" ungkap Dita dengan nada cemas.

Aku bisa melihat kecemasan dan ketakutan di mata Dita. “Aku tidak mengerti. Bukankah ini berita bagus? Kau sudah lama menyukainya diam-diam bukan?” 

“Justru itu! Aku tidak mengerti apa yang membuat dia menyukaiku. Ini terasa tidak nyata, terlalu bagus untuk jadi kenyataan." Dita memejamkan matanya "Kau kan tahu dia lulus cumlaude, aktif di BEM, cakep, hebat dalam berorasi, shalat selalu tepat waktu, rajin puasa senin-kamis, sementara aku tidak sedikit pun menyerupai kehebatannya. Aku hanya gadis biasa, masih banyak gadis lain yang lebih cantik, lebih pintar. Rasanya tidak pantas bagiku bersanding dengannya. Mengapa dia memilihku? ”

 “Dit, jika dia memilihmu, bukankah tandanya dia merasa kau pantas bersanding dengannya? Lagipula, bukan tugas kita menentukan siapa pantas dengan siapa. Itu tugas Tuhan. ” 

“Entahlah. Aku takut, Cha. Bagaimana kalau dia salah mengenalku? Mungkin dia mengira aku sosok yang baik. Bagaimana jika setelah menikah, dia justru menemukan bahwa aku berbeda dari yang selama ini dia pikirkan? Bagaimana jika dia kecewa?”

"Dit, bagiku kau adalah sosok gadis yang ceria, optimis, tidak mudah menyerah, dan memiliki semangat yang tinggi untuk mengenal Islam dan memperbaiki dirinya. Jika aku laki-laki, tentu aku akan mengajakmu menikah.” 

“Kau bicara begitu kan karena kau sahabatku. Jangan membuatku keGRan. Aku tidak cantik dan pintar. Aku punya banyak kekurangan.”

Dita menatapku, masih terlihat ragu. 

Aku tidak percaya mendengarnya, ternyata Dita sahabatku ini rendah diri.
“Aih Dita, tidak ada manusia yang sempurna, begitupun aku dan Kemal. Apa yang membuatmu mau berteman denganku? Kecantikan kah? Kepintaran kah?”

Dita menggeleng, mengatupkan bibirnya rapat-rapat.

“Begitu pula dalam memilih teman hidup, Ini bukan hanya soal kecantikan dan kepintaran. Kalau memang hanya itu, pernikahan bahagia hanya dimiliki oleh orang-orang pintar dan cantik saja. Jangan berpikir bahwa kau tidak cukup baik, kau baik, Dita. Belajarlah menerima dirimu dan mencintai dirimu sendiri. Kau layak dicintai." aku mengoceh panjang lebar menceramahinya.
"Bagaimana kalau tanya Kemal langsung saja, apa yang membuat dia melamarmu? Bertanya padaku tidak membantumu mendapatkan jawaban..”

Dita mengangguk lemah. Aku melingkarkan kedua tanganku di pundaknya, memeluknya, seraya berdoa semoga Dita bisa lebih percaya diri, percaya bahwa dirinya pantas untuk dicintai.




Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia

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When I entered into the Balairung University of Indonesia hall as a graduate, I felt embarrassed.

Although managed to pass the 3.5 years, I regret my undergraduate thesis did not get an A and my last semester GPA is not cumlaude. (My total GPA is cumlaude)


In my final semester, I get sudden realization that  I had the lack of achievement and contribution to UI. What have I done for these past year?

I remembered the reason why I wanted to join UI, It is when I was 6 years old. The riots in May 1998 caused a lot of activity stopped. Although I was small, I remembered the atmosphere were tense, scary because I live in the
Mbah's house  (grandpa) that is located right next provincial road where frequent intercity buses went back and forth. The front porch of the Mbah's house often became a place for people who wait for intercity bus.  

At that time.the road were so quiet, people are afraid to leave the house and a lot stalls were closed. I remembered my mom asked me to cut corners since it was dangerous to go to market. The worst news for me was preschool also closed. I really like the school, the May riots seize my greatest happiness: the school.

"Je, wear your jackets. If the situation deteriorates, we will go through the back door. Umi has prepared important documents such as birth certificates and some clothes. "

"We will go, Mi? Leave the house? "

"Yes, if the situation is getting serious (dangerous). "

"When?"

"Umi not sure yet, but if Umi says we go, we go."

Immediately I felt anxious and sad. 

I did not want to leave the house. I pray that this unrest over so I can go back to school and do not need to leave the house.

Thank God my prayers were answered.

When I heard the news, I know that the UI students successfully entered the House of Representative Building.

At that time, I consider UI students as heroes, and I promised myself that time, I'll go in the UI and want to be like them.

Time pass and I forgot promise that I made when I was 6 years old


 Now, I wonder what have I done in UI? for UI? Have I Managed to be a hero?

I shook my head.

It felt so ashamed at myself.

How could I forget and do not utilize my time well.



"Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia. Truth, Honesty, Justice. You'll often hear in college. You as a UI alumni, should remember and apply them wherever you are. "*

I was stunned to hear what prof. Anis, Rector of UI said during a speech.

He does not discuss the GPA as a measure of success or characteristic UI alumni.

he did not mention winning trophy as proof to be hero or UI alumni.


I felt I was given a second chance.

I still can improve myself and do not embarrass University of Indonesia.

Yes there is a chance, if I can remember and
always apply Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia

Alhamdulillah

Thank God and Thanks to Prof. Anis!


I hope I can apply  Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia

 

Btw, congratulations on the election and
inauguration of  Prof. Anis as Rector of UI.  
Barakallah! 
Good Luck Sir!





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Only a Matter of Time (Afraid)

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you say I'm always in a hurry
express my love in hurry
ask you to marry, also in hurry
do you know love, I'm afraid
afraid of losing you

Strangely!
the more I'm afraid to lose you
 distance between us became further away
Will you stay?
I want you
I want nobody
nobody but you
only you
I'm happy to be with love in you
I'm happy to express my love to you
I only think about us
 myself and you, Love

strangely!
Now, you are close to me
I'm still scared
my heart is always restless
if this is just an illusion
or a dream?

I'm afraid
I lose you, love
because deep in my heart
I know
I love you,
the apparent
for the apparent reason

Only a matter of time
I will lose you
whether later
or now
because in the end,
 you and I will be gone
so is this love




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