My Brother's First Driving on Toll Road

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Kemarin adalah hari bersejarah dalam hidupku or keluargaku karena adik Huang untuk pertama kalinya mengendarai mobil di jalan tol. Jadi, kemarin selesainya arisan ke 16 Keluarga H. Abdul Azis di rumah Wa Ati di Citereup, Bogor, Bapak (ayah tiriku) merasa lelah dan memutuskan memberi kesempatan pada adikku Huang untuk mengendarai mobil dari Bogor ke Tanah Abang, untuk mengantarku. Umiku menentang hal ini karena dia belum yakin Adikku Huang sudah lancar membawa mobil. Adikku Huang baru mengikuti 5 sesi kursus mengemudi dari keseluruhan 10 sesi. 

Namun, Bapak bersikukuh. Sementara Umi membujuk Bapak untuk membatalkan recananya, aku memberi tahu Huang bahwa Bapak memintanya mengendarai mobil, mendengar hal itu dia tertawa tapi beberapa detik kemudian langsung duduk di bangku kemudi.

Selama di perjalanan, umi berkeringat dingin dan menampilkan wajah cemas, bahkan umi menyangka aku juga cemas seperti beliau karena aku tidak tidur seperti yang biasa aku lakukan. Jadi, salah satu kebiasaanku begitu naik mobil adalah langsung tidur dan bangun ketika sudah sampai tujuan. Jangan tanya arah jalan padaku ataupun pemandangan karena aku menghabiskan sebagian besar waktu di perjalanan dengan tidur. Hehehehe 

Kali ini aku tidak tidur karena aku ingin melihat bagaimana adikku menyetir pertama kali di jalan tol. Bagaimana mungkin aku melewatkan kesempatan ini!

Jujur saya, aku merasa adikku cukup smooth membawa mobil, dia lebih tenang dari yang aku bayangkan. Dia juga berhasil berbelok dengan baik dan berhenti tepat saat mengambil/membayar karcis tol. Hal yang aku kagumi adalah dia membawa banyak orang lho, membawa bapak, umi, aku dan adikku, memey. \(^0^)/

Alhamdullillah kemarin aku dan keluargaku selamat sampai kosanku di Taman Tanah Abang.

P.S. saking menikmati momen memperhatikan adikku Huang, aku lupa memfoto dia sedang mengemudi. Jadi gambarnya ilustrasi saja ya?^^v

Pantas

"Cha, Kemal mengajakku menikah" ungkap Dita dengan nada cemas.

Aku bisa melihat kecemasan dan ketakutan di mata Dita. “Aku tidak mengerti. Bukankah ini berita bagus? Kau sudah lama menyukainya diam-diam bukan?” 

“Justru itu! Aku tidak mengerti apa yang membuat dia menyukaiku. Ini terasa tidak nyata, terlalu bagus untuk jadi kenyataan." Dita memejamkan matanya "Kau kan tahu dia lulus cumlaude, aktif di BEM, cakep, hebat dalam berorasi, shalat selalu tepat waktu, rajin puasa senin-kamis, sementara aku tidak sedikit pun menyerupai kehebatannya. Aku hanya gadis biasa, masih banyak gadis lain yang lebih cantik, lebih pintar. Rasanya tidak pantas bagiku bersanding dengannya. Mengapa dia memilihku? ”

 “Dit, jika dia memilihmu, bukankah tandanya dia merasa kau pantas bersanding dengannya? Lagipula, bukan tugas kita menentukan siapa pantas dengan siapa. Itu tugas Tuhan. ” 

“Entahlah. Aku takut, Cha. Bagaimana kalau dia salah mengenalku? Mungkin dia mengira aku sosok yang baik. Bagaimana jika setelah menikah, dia justru menemukan bahwa aku berbeda dari yang selama ini dia pikirkan? Bagaimana jika dia kecewa?”

"Dit, bagiku kau adalah sosok gadis yang ceria, optimis, tidak mudah menyerah, dan memiliki semangat yang tinggi untuk mengenal Islam dan memperbaiki dirinya. Jika aku laki-laki, tentu aku akan mengajakmu menikah.” 

“Kau bicara begitu kan karena kau sahabatku. Jangan membuatku keGRan. Aku tidak cantik dan pintar. Aku punya banyak kekurangan.”

Dita menatapku, masih terlihat ragu. 

Aku tidak percaya mendengarnya, ternyata Dita sahabatku ini rendah diri.
“Aih Dita, tidak ada manusia yang sempurna, begitupun aku dan Kemal. Apa yang membuatmu mau berteman denganku? Kecantikan kah? Kepintaran kah?”

Dita menggeleng, mengatupkan bibirnya rapat-rapat.

“Begitu pula dalam memilih teman hidup, Ini bukan hanya soal kecantikan dan kepintaran. Kalau memang hanya itu, pernikahan bahagia hanya dimiliki oleh orang-orang pintar dan cantik saja. Jangan berpikir bahwa kau tidak cukup baik, kau baik, Dita. Belajarlah menerima dirimu dan mencintai dirimu sendiri. Kau layak dicintai." aku mengoceh panjang lebar menceramahinya.
"Bagaimana kalau tanya Kemal langsung saja, apa yang membuat dia melamarmu? Bertanya padaku tidak membantumu mendapatkan jawaban..”

Dita mengangguk lemah. Aku melingkarkan kedua tanganku di pundaknya, memeluknya, seraya berdoa semoga Dita bisa lebih percaya diri, percaya bahwa dirinya pantas untuk dicintai.

Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia

When I entered into the Balairung University of Indonesia hall as a graduate, I felt embarrassed.

Although managed to pass the 3.5 years, I regret my undergraduate thesis did not get an A and my last semester GPA is not cumlaude. (My total GPA is cumlaude)

In my final semester, I get sudden realization that  I had the lack of achievement and contribution to UI. What have I done for these past year?

I remembered the reason why I wanted to join UI, It is when I was 6 years old. The riots in May 1998 caused a lot of activity stopped. Although I was small, I remembered the atmosphere were tense, scary because I live in the Mbah's house  (grandpa) that is located right next provincial road where frequent intercity buses went back and forth. The front porch of the Mbah's house often became a place for people who wait for intercity bus.  

At that time.the road were so quiet, people are afraid to leave the house and a lot stalls were closed. I remembered my mom asked me to cut corners since it was dangerous to go to market. The worst news for me was preschool also closed. I really like the school, the May riots seize my greatest happiness: the school.

"Je, wear your jackets. If the situation deteriorates, we will go through the back door. Umi has prepared important documents such as birth certificates and some clothes. "

"We will go, Mi? Leave the house? "

"Yes, if the situation is getting serious (dangerous). "

"When?"

"Umi not sure yet, but if Umi says we go, we go."

Immediately I felt anxious and sad. 
I did not want to leave the house. I pray that this unrest over so I can go back to school and do not need to leave the house.

Thank God my prayers were answered.

When I heard the news, I know that the UI students successfully entered the House of Representative Building.

At that time, I consider UI students as heroes, and I promised myself that time, I'll go in the UI and want to be like them.

Time pass and I forgot promise that I made when I was 6 years old

 Now, I wonder what have I done in UI? for UI? Have I Managed to be a hero?

I shook my head.

It felt so ashamed at myself.

How could I forget and do not utilize my time well.



"Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia. Truth, Honesty, Justice. You'll often hear in college. You as a UI alumni, should remember and apply them wherever you are. "*

I was stunned to hear what prof. Anis, Rector of UI said during a speech.

He does not discuss the GPA as a measure of success or characteristic UI alumni.
he did not mention winning trophy as proof to be hero or UI alumni.


I felt I was given a second chance.

I still can improve myself and do not embarrass University of Indonesia.

Yes there is a chance, if I can remember and always apply Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia

Alhamdulillah

Thank God and Thanks to Prof. Anis!

I hope I can apply  Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia

 

Btw, congratulations on the election and inauguration of  Prof. Anis as Rector of UI.  
Barakallah! 
Good Luck Sir!

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My First Day at Work and Three Investigators

Alhamdulillah :D
I started  working in SWA Magazine as Research Executive on 4th August

On my first day, I was very nervous and anxious.
I did not have a good night sleep, I woke up several times
Plus I got flu and it made feel uncomfortable
When I try to take picture of me on first day of work, I shocked that I found my self frowned
(Oh no! I delete it instantly)
I don't want to be remembered as rude at first day at work (since I believe first impression matter)
It also made me realize I am still have to learn to control my emotion
Some people asked me my last employment and It made me wander "Did I not look like fresh grad? Did I look old?" Hope not.


Fortunately, the HR, Mba Rifka is really nice, she often initiates talk, and smile  :) She was the one who accompany me during human resources tours, I met a lot people, but also forgot most of them when I got home ( I regret did not write them in notes as soon the tours end)

I also told by Mba Rifka that the research department and library are in the same place. I think it is great. I will be surrounded by books \(^o^)/
(actually when I did intern at Indian embassy, my work area is surrounded with books also). I am really lucky!

When I looked at it, the place is so quiet and gave old and unfriendly feeling
Maybe because only few people in. Only two staff (Mas Armi and Mas Rizki) came to work, the rest was still on Eid leave. They were welcoming me but the I feel awkward.
Then I realized I did not what to do at my first day at work so I google it, then found  19 Things You Should Do On Your First Day Of Work ,  10 Tips for Your First Day of Work , and How to have a good first day at work .
After reading that, I started the to pick up line by asking how they first day at work.
Mas Rizki said that he did not get assignment at first day at work
Mas Armi told me to take it slow and can use the computer and the internet

Later, after lunch break, I was told by Mas Rizki that I have an assignment to update list as introduction.
When I worked on it, my flu seemed get worse, I felt shortness of breath and eye irritation so I stopped for awhile.
Somehow it made stressed, but Alhamdulillah I got really good news.

ヾ(@°▽°@)ノ

It made my day  ヾ(@°▽°@)ノ 
I found out that Gramedia republished Three Investigator Series (((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o))
Three Investigator #1
Three Investigator #2
Three Investigator #3
Three Investigator #4 

(((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o)))

(((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o)))

(((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o)))

I love Three Investigator!
Abi (my dad) gave me the 9th book "The Mystery of the Screaming Clock" four years ago and I fell in love instantly and want to buy the rest but I found it published on 1980s. 
I want to buy the republished edition but I remembered that I promised my mom that I will not buy any book for this month 
then I remembered that I have a wish that if I get married I want my future husband gave a complete series Three Investigator as "mahar"
I took this republish as a good sign :D
I mean if Gramedia did not republish Three Investigator Series, it will be hard request from me to my future husband (whoever you are) to find Three Investigator Series, and as far as I know, mahar have to easy to find.
Thankfully, Gramedia republished Three Investigator Series so my wish can come true
(or maybe next month I will try persuade my mom to allow me to buy books again)
Alhamdulillah! Thank you Allah! Thank you Gramedia! “ヽ(´▽｀)ノ”

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Rely on

The last few days I felt anxious wait for the news whether i get accepted or not in job interview
I've followed the final stages of recrutment in 3 companies and they usually contact me within a week
But strangely no one has contacted me
I felt anxious
 then when i open facebook, i found the status of Yasmine Mogahed

"Your anxiety about a matter is a sign that you have put your trust in your own efforts,

 rather than God" 

I was shocked
Astagfirullah
O Allah, it turns out that I have not fully rely on You
Despite I know that the fortune is a matter of destiny that You have set
If it's my fortune, I'll get it. If not, I will not.
O God, help me become a servant that always rely on You

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