Rizqi Kesempatan

Salim A Fillah pernah bilang kalau Rizqi itu bukan hanya yang tertulis di slip gaji dan bukan soal apa yang sanggup dibeli. Hakikat Rizqi itu bukan soal berapa tapi apa nikmat yang kita rasa. (bisa baca artikel lengkapnya disini)

Hana jadi menyadari satu hal, Alhamdulillah karena kerja di majalah SWA, Hana berkesempatan bisa baca majalah-majalah dari Amerika Serikat seperti Times, Harvard Bussiness Review, Fast Company dan Bloomberg Bussiness Week, tanpa harus merogok kocek pribadi.
Kalau rizki hanya sebatas gaji, mungkin sulit bagi Hana membaca majalah-majalah tersebut karena uangnya udah keburu dipakai untuk kebutuhan primer yang lebih mendesak. Hehe

Alhamdulillah terima kasih atas kesempatannya ya Allah. (^0^)/

Funny?

My co worker often laughed at me and I puzzled, I did not understand why they laugh

They said “Not everything can be explained, Han. It only can be felt.” 

Then they continue to laugh

"The important thing is that you get good deed for making people laugh, Han" comment Retno, one of co workers.

Hm...

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Then I remembered my partners when I worked on undergraduate thesis, Ria and Shahnaz, often laugh at me, too. Ria said my expression is funny. Shahnaz said I am not funny in humorous way, but rather because I appreciate every little things and care to my friends

I recalled my best friend Vania also said I am funny, so I asked her why she thinks I am funny.

She said my remarks/ comment (celetukan) is funny, I did not try to be funny nor I realize that I am funny. She also said I am often laugh after I made mistake. Those are things that lead her to think I am funny.

Hm... I still don't get it but I learned something about myself :D

Grateful for being sick

Hello Guys!

A few days ago I was sick and I still went to work. When I went to the pantry, one of the office boy asked me “Have you read the Quran today even tough you were sick?” “Yes, I have” “Is not it a blessed that you can read the Quran?”

I was stunned for a moment. He made me realized there are a lot things that I have to thankful to Allah, and one of them is able to read the Quran.

Alhamdulillah!

I am grateful for being sick, it made me realized nothing last forever. When I was healthy, I became laid back and forget that my time in this world is limited and I could become sick and die. 

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Hard to say Good bye

Beside Mba Asri, one of my co worker has left Research SWA and did not say good bye.
I and my co workers wonder why she did not say good bye.
Did we do something wrong to her?
Then at the last day Mba Asri at SWA, my co workers Rizki said to her that he hated separation and say goodbye

Suddenly, It occurs to me that maybe my co worker who left without said good bye actually felt that it is hard to say good bye so she did not do it.

I also remember story about Umar and Ali. Ali once complained Umar's behavior to Rasulullah PBUH. He wonder why Umar never said "Assalamu'alalikum" to him whenever they met. Ali, think that Umar hated him.
Then Rasulullah PBUH called Umar and asked his explanation about Ali's complain. Umar said that He heard that the one who said Assalamu'alaikum first to his brother is the one who have more reward (good deed), so Umar did not said Assalamu'alaikum first because He wants Ali to have opportunity to become the first one who said Assalamu'alaikum.

This is wonderful story how beautiful the brotherhood of prophet's companions. We learn that sometimes things not the way they seems, things that look bad from our perspectives do not mean they bad. We have to find out more and have positive thinking.

And maybe my co workers just felt hard to say good bye. I better try to find out. Wish me luck! :D

“There is always something to look forward to. In pain, look forward to healing. In hardship, look forward to ease. And in separation, look forward to reunion. Allah has promised the believers all these things.”

Yasmin Mogahed

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More Confident

My co worker, Rizki said thanks to me. He said he became more confident after I joined SWA.

At that time, I thought he become more confident because he is no longer the youngest and he is smarter than me. 

I felt I was the stupidest since I knew little about business and SWA Magazine so I often ask my senior about a lot of things and sometime they seem get annoyed by my question so I feel stupider.

I often ask a lot of questions to Rizki since he seem welcomed or did not seem annoyed if I ask question and our age difference is only a year apart. I feel like I ask a friend, not senior.

I tried to feel not stupid by remembering Albert Einsten quotes that "If we knew what it was we were doing, it would not be called research, would it?" 

It is alright for me to not know all things.

It is okay for me to feel stupid.

I said to myself  it will be not okay when I did not want to learn or study anymore
realized that I knew nothing and little made me curious and want to learn
then I can grow into better person.

After two months in SWA, Rizki admitted that he felt more confident than me because he finally found someone who is smaller and skinnier than he.

I was speechless. -_-

I did not get it

then I realized it is about what things that matter to someone.

For me, being smart is important because it made me confident

So when someone said he/she is more confident, I automatically think that he/she has same source of confidence and think what made people more confident than me if he/she is smarter than me 

But I am forget that people have different source of confident or things that matter to them.

For Rizki, It seems body image is important thing or source of his confident so when he found someone who is skinnier/thinner, He felt more confident.

Hahahahahaha

Then I asked him "So you did not think I am stupid?"

Rizki said "No"

then I smiled 

I also realized something else:
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Fake Cofidence

I just got back from Executive Event: The Future-Ready Organization, Reinventing Work in ASEAN held by Accenture and SWA at Kempinski Hotel
My Manager and Mas Joko asked me suddenly in the morning so I came with unpreprared outfit
I just wear  casual cardigan plus long skirt and when I saw the other guest, I felt down because they wear better dress. I lost my confidence and I want to wear better outfit. After sometime I realized something that I decide the level of confidence based on my outfit. It is not good. How could I become stupid?
Outfit did not matter.
I remember the successful people who wear simple and casual outfit and they are still cool because their personality and their skill outshine their outfit.
I felt shame to forget about that.
I said to my self that maybe in the future there will a lot unexpected event happened when I wear my casual outfit and as long as I delivered best performance, what I wear will not matter.
If I depend my level confidence based my outfit, It mean it is fake confidence.
It is not come from within or my inner self.
These event made me realized that I should be more believe in my self  and be more confidence.
Maybe today event is one of exercise or practice for me.
:)
Alhamdulillah
Allah knows best!
Good Luck for me
 

What is my number

During the process of looking for job after graduation, I face some let down phase
At that time, I had two or three times rejected.
I thought after graduation, I will find a job easily.
then I consulted to my senior, kak Reno. He told me that he applied 100 jobs vacancies and through 20 interviews to get the job he got right now (System Engineer at Dimension Data)
After hear that, I got my spirit up and I was like "Well I have not reach 100th yet, so I should not be sad and give up easily"
I also remember one of my friend who said during university admission "I envy you, Hana. You got accepted at University of Indonesia while I still have to struggle to get University admission"
Ah.. Maybe it is my turn now to feel like she feel
The other thing that made me optimist is Aa Gym's Lecture: UI Bertauhid
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After trial and trial

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It took me long to realized that I made a lot mistakes during the process
Maybe you guys should read this: Congratulations Graduate! Eleven Reasons Why I Will Never Hire You and  How to make right CV (the article in bahasa Indonesia) 
I made almost all mistake mentioned at that article (presentation), not at one time but during my process of getting a job

Two other big mistakes that I realized are
a. I am not look for the job that I passionate about
b. I have been not grateful after graduation (Astagfirullah. Forgive me, Allah)

After my friend Ika got the job she dreamed about, I just realized something profound: I want to be a researcher and writer or any job that allow me to learn continuously and quite challenging

So I started to look researcher job and applied
And Thanks God, It went well
Now I worked at SWA Magazine as Research Executive

Can you guess how many times I applied?
Well, It is almost 200 jobs vacancies
:D
I am glad I did not give up
La haula walla kuwata illa billah

One my insight during the job searching is that Allah want me to be grateful because too often I take something for granted when I get thing easily
Maybe it is true when somebody said that life start after you graduate
Whatever it is, I believe Allah always give the best to His servant
:)

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Surprised

At my second day at work I find my self surprised and moved (＃´ー´)旦 when I saw a glass of water on my desk.
 It made me think "Whoaa! I am really part of SWA now! I am an employee" (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧
 I mean I often found a glass of water on the lecturer's desk
and at that time, I did not imagine I will get something similar someday (At Indian Embassy, I have to bring my own tumbler but I can refill it).
 Another surprise is that the operator system that my computer use is Linux (I have tried use Linux at middle school and I remembered it hard to operate).
I hope I can adapt.
(Using Linux is not that hard as I remember back then in the middle school)
My Assistant Manager, Mas Aswin has come back from Eid Leave. he told me the job description. he seems nice and fun but he looks puzzled when I did not asked any question after his explanation finished. But I really did not know what to ask, maybe because I already asked several question to Mas Rizki and Mas Armi yesterday so I kinda get the picture of Mas Aswin's description.
I also get human resources tour for second time because some people just got back from Eid leave.

And before I knew it,  It’s been a month I worked at SWA

Alhamdulillah :D

I like working here

Things I like in SWA:

-I have nice coworkers

-I can read several magazine and newspaper like HBR, Gatra, Tempo, Times, Fast company, dewi, Kompas, Republika, Wallstreet Journal, Asia Forbes,etc

-I can pray duha and read quran during work hours

-I can wear casual clothes at work

-Working at SWA made realize that I knew little/nothing. At first I felt stupid because there are many things I do not know. Then I remembered
 

"If we knew what it was we were doing, it would not be called research, would it?"  - Albert Einstein

If I already knew the answer, what is the point of doing research? : D  
Other positive sides of the fact that I did not know a lot of things are that I learned so many things every day and I learned to stay foolish stay hunger, I must have the courage to ask my co-workers or find out for yourself.

 -It allow me to meet a lot new people (SWA Research and Documentation Departemenrt often held competition, such best CEO, HR Excellence, etc )

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