MSC Gathering: The Truth

Finally on 19th July, MSC (a complete one) held gathering after for a long time I did not meet.
Hana Talita treated MSC plus Niken for her birthday to Pizza Express.
Yeay!
Alhamdulillah :D
I missed them so much

Hana Talita has reserved the place before so we did not have to be waited to be seated. Thank you Hana Talita. :D
We actually reserved the place for 5.30 pm, but  The Pizza Express said is better for us to come at 5.00 because they afraid our order will not be ready at Magrib, because everybody want to be served on Magrib too.
At 5.00 pm, only Hanata & Me that has already come so both of us decided the menu and we ordered ramadhan set menu plus alfredo spaghetti. I am satisfied with the menu and the best thing is free \(^0^)/
 (since Hana Talita is the one that pay)

On gathering, we play truth or dare. Everybody got turn to said what we hate about each member
I wanna told you about what MSC member hate  about me or they think my bad side:

Vania : When Hana told story, She told detail that not necessary, and did not directly told the point. I am often confused what reaction that Hana's expected.

I often told story from chronological order, i do not want my friend miss the detail and then get confused. I just want to share the story, I actually did not expect anything. I just want my friend, especially the best and close ones get updated information from me.

Nia : Conservative. I think how you told Ikhsan  advice or direction will made him insecure


Kathy : Talkative. I hate talkative person, actually. You also often send a lot of Line sticker that not necessary. 

Hanata: I agree with others. I did not like when you talkative because sometimes I think it is for personal message but you share it on group

Ikhsan: I did not like when you remind me of shalah. I am not the religious one but I still believe in Islam. I think praying should come from the heart.

Niken : You often say sorry when you do not make mistake and sometimes you ask question at class, that you can ask after class privately.

I quite shock to hear that but I think it is good thing to be honest with my friend so I understand them and myself better
:D

Most of them hate me when I am talkative, I think I should learn to start think before speak and carefully choose the words.

When my turns came to tell what I hate about MSC, I spent time thinking because what I hate about them is tolerable for me.

In this gathering, I also learn a lot new information about MSC. I think I had fun.
\(^0^)/

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Lesson Learned from Princess Hours (Goong)

Sometime ago I was watching Korean drama : Princess Hours or Goong 

I watched in 2006 for the first time, and at that time, the lesson that I got is be honest to yourself and say what you feel, if you are sad, said that you are sad, and if you are happy, say you are happy. If you do not say  what you really feel and think, sometimes people will not understand what we really feel and think.

Well, after I watched the drama again, I got some additional lesson: 
-Be Grateful. The cause of unhappiness is because we instead focus on what is missing and wondering what if situation, instead of being grateful for what we have in the present.

I learned these after I saw Yul and her mother who always wished that yul father is not dead, then Yul became crown prince and her mother became Queen, they thought they will be happy in that way and they are not happy because they are not prince and queen. They was too focused on what was missing, and did not thankful for what they have now 

-Don't be greedy. You can not get everything you want. 

I did not realize that my hands are full, while I still want another. To be able to get another, I have to let go of what is in my Hand -Min Hyo Rin

-I think I should be grateful that the man that I ever like is not a prince or artist. 
I realized it when watched a scene between Shin &  Min Hyorin. Hyo Rin complained to Shin "How could I forget you?! Do you know when I read the newspaper, watch the tv, hear radio, everything tell me about you, what are you doing, what are you wearing?" 
When I heard the Hyorin's speech, I suddenly realized that I was lucky, if my condition is similar with Hyorin, it might be more difficult to me, to forget the man that I love 

- Chae-kyeong and Yul are immature. They still often act on the basis of momentary emotion (impulsivity), they do not think about the impact of such actions for long term basis or to think several moves ahead before act. 

I learned when Yul suggest Cha-kyeong that she pronounce divorce in a national interview, or when Yul and Cha-Kyeong run from school together. 

-If your husband is not good at comforting you when you are sad, tell him how he can to do so he is able to learn to comfort you, do not seek comfort or peace to the other man. 
Shin asked Chae-kyeong "What Yul can do but I can not do?" 

It turned out to that I felt exciting when at first I thought the drama would be bored :D
alhamdulillah :D

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Patience

On last 10 July, I attended iftar SALAM UI 16.
There are lecture by Mr. Banu (SALAM UI's Supervisors). He told the story of the Prophet Khidr and Prophet Musa, the story can be found in Q.S. Al-Kahf.

Lessons learned from the story is that knowledge is valuable in the sight of Allah. So it make sense that the pursuit of knowledge is hard. To get knowledge, a person should take pains. (ง '⌣') ง
In  Al-Kahf, Prophet Musa must travel long distances to meet with the Prophet Khidr, to learn from him.

After faced a long journey, Prophet Khidr gave a requirement to Prophet Musa that he must be able to be patient when he studied.

Unfortunately, Prophet Musa can not afford to be patient.
The other lessons: It turns out that our ignorance makes us not able to put up an event. When we learn, sometimes we face the condition where we lost patience and it happened because we do not understand the meaning of our condition. From the story of Prophet Musa & Prophet Khidr, we should be patient when deal with something because our impatience was due to lack of knowledge we have.

Hearing the lecture, made me realize that all this time, when I became impatient with my study or any condition that I faced in my life, the reason is because I don't understand. I am still lack of knowledge.
I am embarrassed that I often gave up when the situation gets more difficult.
I hope I will not be like that anymore

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Forgotten April

At noon 23rd April, only few people remember my birthday: my cousin Raissa, my niece QQ, My close friend: Kame & Nova. I confused. I usually got endless notification about birthday greeting from social media. But none said happy birthday to me on facebook, I only got two mention in twitter and one from google plus

“What’s going on here?” I ask myself “Do they busy? Do they forget the date? Do they wake up late? Do people already forget me? Do they... ”

What broke my heart even more is that none of MSC member has said happy birthday to me.

so I asked them in WA group “Guys, today is my birthday. Do you forget it or pretend to forget it?”

None of them answered so I suspect they pretend to forget my birthday, I mean if I really forget my friend’s birthday, I will say birthday and sorry as soon as possible when I get notified/remember.

When I go to google, the doodle is on birthday theme. I am moved.

I was like “Even google remember my birthday, why my best friend and my friends did not?”

Then I check my Facebook profile, I suddenly realized something odd. Last year, I remember facebook gave me mark “cake symbol” and sentence “your birthday is today.”

But I did not found those things on my Facebook profile.

 I suddenly realized something: I hide my birthday.  I need to fix it. I will unhide my birthday. Then I go to setting but I could not find it. I try several times and still I could not find how I unhide my birthday.

Hahahaha ...

It seemed that I have to accept the fact that for my 22nd’s birthday only few people that remember it.

But my patient only lasted until twilight, the sadness that I feel because people forget me become unbearable. I wanna cry.

For me, birthday is important moment, moment to feel thankful to be born in this world and celebrate it.

Suddenly, I remember Kak Aditya Kurniawan. He is the one who inspire me to hide my birthday on Facebook, so I told him(via WA) that I failed to follow his example because today is my birthday and I feel sad and I am still not used to with this sudden change. I also told him I tried to change to unhide my birthday on Facebook but I did not how.

He laugh, said happy birthday to me and then told me how to unhide my birthday. I should go to update profile, not went to setting.

I felt silly and stupid. How can I forget about that? O_O

But when he told me, I am on the bus on my way back to karawang from Jakarta ( I got interview test at Indian Embassy that day) and my internet connection kinda bad plus low battery.
Since I can’t bear the pain and sadness that people forget my birthday, I sent text to many WA's group that I joined in: Today is my birthday, so please said happy birthday to me.
Then I got some happy birthday greetings from my friends. I was happy again! Yeah! Alhamdulillah!

When I told Kak Adit about my solution, he laughed and said “Han, why do not you ask a friend to notified your other friends that today is your birthday?”

( O .. O )

Suddenly I felt stupid, I did not think that way. Maybe I am going to try the advice next year (Insya Allah)

Anyway I realized the good things from this year forgotten birthday:

-I got reminder that my best friend MSC is quite mischievous. They really pretend to forget my birthday since they knew I hate being forgotten. Yeah, I think it is better, I mean things it could get worse. I mean being forgotten is better than they throw flour on me or drown me onto lake. Sometimes we are happy when we pick or joke on our friends. 

-I did not have to reply tons or many birthday greeting, especially from somebody I don't really know.

-Keep positive thinking. My friend have their way to say happy birthday to me. Like my close friend Ranti, when I asked why she has not said happy birthday, she admitted that she remembered my birthday, but since she failed became the first person to say happy birthday to me, she intend to became the last person who said happy birthday to me. :’)

It is so sweet.

-Having wedding on my birthday will not be a good idea (I used to think having wedding on my birthday is good idea). I feel so sad because my birthday is forgotten, I could not image how sad I am if the wedding date is similar to my birthday and then my husband forget those.

Hahahahahaahhaha

-I realized that the disappointment that I felt is because I love this world so much. It is reminder that I should place my hope and my expectation in Allah then I will find never get disappointed.

“When nobody else celebrates you, learn to celebrate yourself. When nobody else compliments you, then compliment yourself. It’s not up to other people to keep you encouraged. It’s up to you. Encouragement should come from the inside.”

—	Joel Osteen

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Always Good

I've always thought I'd be happy if I get what I want
But it turns out without getting what I want, I am fine and happy
Sometime ago I was thinking that marrying the man I love will make me happy and I will find my happily ever after
But it turns out that I can not marry him
I find that:
I still laugh when reading comics
I smiled at the joke that was brought up by my family and friends
I still can feel happy
At first I thought I would feel sad and cry for hours
Apparently not
Alhamdulillah
I'm very grateful to God
Which makes me realize that no matter what happens, it is always good
As the Rasulullah (Prophet Muhammad PBUH) said that
How wonderful is the case of believer;
there is good for him in everything
and this applies only to a believer
If prosperity attend him, he expresses gratitude to Allah;
and that is good for him
and if adversity befalls him, he endures it patiently and that is better for him
What I need to do is always believing that God has kind intention
I just understand that recently
Because sometimes what made us sad is that we don't understand that God always gives His best to His servant

I remember the story of Umar who protest about the results Hudaibiyah agreement to the Rasulullah PBUH and Abu Bakr,  according to Umar, the agreement harms Muslims
But the Rasulullah PBUH and Abu Bakr believed that it is ordinance of God
After the Prophet died, Umar realized that Hudaibiyah agreement proved to be more detrimental to Kafr Quraysh than infidels Muslims, he regretted ever protest against the results of the agreement

I think the bad or sad moment we have in life is actually like medicine when we are sick
we have to take medication even though it was bitter, because after we take the medicine, we can be healed, healthy and strong
But sometimes we do not understand, even cry and refuse the medicine
I also believe problems exist so we learn to change our point of view for the things that initially we thought we can not pass or tackle
Whatever happens, believe it is the best
Allahu Akbar!
Yes, I think my life is always good and here I am the luckiest girl the world
Alhamdulillah ala kuli hal!
\(^0^)/

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Rely on

The last few days I felt anxious wait for the news whether i get accepted or not in job interview
I've followed the final stages of recrutment in 3 companies and they usually contact me within a week
But strangely no one has contacted me
I felt anxious
 then when i open facebook, i found the status of Yasmine Mogahed

"Your anxiety about a matter is a sign that you have put your trust in your own efforts,

 rather than God" 

I was shocked
Astagfirullah
O Allah, it turns out that I have not fully rely on You
Despite I know that the fortune is a matter of destiny that You have set
If it's my fortune, I'll get it. If not, I will not.
O God, help me become a servant that always rely on You

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Happy Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum blog readers
Thank you for reading this blog
I also want to apologize for no updates (although I promised to update this blog once a week)
Originally the reason why i did not update this blog was no internet access at home, then it made me lazy
I am sorry about that ..

I also want to say Happy Ramadhan!
Thank God we still given the opportunity to meet Ramadan
If you play the game,  Ramadan is like a bonus round because any good deeds, we do will be multiplied
Do not you feel lucky?
Hopefully we can take advantage of this month with a maximum and can be returned to fitrah in the end
Keep the spirit of fasting, guys :D

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