Hard to say Good bye

Beside Mba Asri, one of my co worker has left Research SWA and did not say good bye. I and my co workers wonder why she did not say good bye. Did we do something wrong to her? Then at the last day Mba Asri at SWA, my co workers Rizki said to her that he hated separation and say goodbye Suddenly, It occurs to me that maybe my co worker who left without said good bye actually felt that it is hard to...

Fast vs Far

“We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness—and call it love” Alhamdulillah on the 7th December, I met members of Millenium Super Cool. I miss them so much. It has been long time that we did not gather as full team. We had lunch at Takarajima then we took...

Veritas, Probitas, Iustitia

When I entered into the Balairung University of Indonesia hall as a graduate, I felt embarrassed. Although managed to pass the 3.5 years, I regret my undergraduate thesis did not get an A and my last semester GPA is not cumlaude. (My total GPA is cumlaude) In my final semester, I get sudden realization that  I had the lack of achievement and contribution to UI. What have I done for these past...

If No, Allahu Akbar

"If the proposal is accepted, Alhamdulillah. Otherwise, Allahu Akbar." said Bilal I puzzled when read Bilal's sentence in a book about marriage preparation. if his proposal is not accepted, why the companion of the Prophet PBUH chose to say Allahu Akbar? Why not Alhamdulillah ala kuli hal or other dhikr? Because from what I remembered, Allahu Akbar is used during prayer, war, substitute applause...

Have your cry, but Keep going

I never thought that I can feel and think like Kakeru in Orange Manga He thought He should not be happy since his mother die I had similar feeling and thinking when I knew my favorite lecturer, Mba Evie is gone I regret the last time I met her, I often avoided her I am afraid that she disappointed in me since my performance went down in my last semesters I regret I never tell her that she is my...

Look Back with Love

When I joined SWA, my co workers often told me story about Mba Aini, the one whose position I replace. Sometimes they compared me with her At first I get annoyed because I thought they think I am not good enough. But I also realized that for me, they are my first co worker but to them I am not their first. Now I am no longer annoyed. I began to understand One of my co workers, Mba Asri had resign...

See You Again, Mba Evie

Assalamu’alaikum Mba Evi (Nurlyta Hafiyah), You probably will never read this letter since you've already gone.  (But maybe Allah will tell you about this letter) I want to tell you that you are my favorite lecturer and it is always be. The are a lot important lessons I got from you. First time We met in logic and scientific writing courses.   I do not know you remembered or...

More Confident

My co worker, Rizki said thanks to me. He said he became more confident after I joined SWA. At that time, I thought he become more confident because he is no longer the youngest and he is smarter than me.  I felt I was the stupidest since I knew little about business and SWA Magazine so I often ask my senior about a lot of things and sometime they seem get annoyed by my question so...

Practice what you preach (keep trying)

After I posted Perfection Trap, I became aware of something ..  I put off doing something because I'm afraid, I wait until I think things get better or perfect then I realized nothing change if I do nothing so I had to do something to change it I decided to focus and solve these problems and stop to blogging so I can use the spare time that I usually use for writing to solve these problem. I...

Fake Cofidence

I just got back from Executive Event: The Future-Ready Organization, Reinventing Work in ASEAN held by Accenture and SWA at Kempinski Hotel My Manager and Mas Joko asked me suddenly in the morning so I came with unpreprared outfit I just wear  casual cardigan plus long skirt and when I saw the other guest, I felt down because they wear better dress. I lost my confidence and I want to wear better...

Perfection trap

After watch  Im Trying But I Keep Messing Up - Yasmin Mogahed I just realized something:  one of devil's trick is to make us think to wait to be perfect to start something good I just recalled  when I was in middle school I did not want to put hijab because I feel I am not good or perfect enough as Muslimah So I want to wait until I became perfect But the problem is that I will never...

Dream Dress

Alhamdulilah \(^o^)/  The fortune that has been written belong to me will come to me, no matter the circumstance   There is a dress that I want when I went shopping to Matahari Depok Town Square back in the February. I want to wear the dress for faculty graduation But when I check my wallet, I did not have that much money so I let it go with heavy heart Hehehe Then at 6th...

What is my number

During the process of looking for job after graduation, I face some let down phase At that time, I had two or three times rejected. I thought after graduation, I will find a job easily. then I consulted to my senior, kak Reno. He told me that he applied 100 jobs vacancies and through 20 interviews to get the job he got right now (System Engineer at Dimension Data) After hear that, I got my spirit...

Teh Tawar and Teh Manis

Whenever I and my best friend, Fida,  have dinner Did you know what we always order for the drink? Yup it is the same as the tittle :D I always order teh tawar and Fida always order teh manis. It actually quite represent the culture where we come from or how we raised . I am Sundanese (and it is common to have teh tawar as drink) While Fida is Javanese (she comes from Yogyakarta) and it is common...

Surprised

At my second day at work I find my self surprised and moved (＃´ー´)旦 when I saw a glass of water on my desk.  It made me think "Whoaa! I am really part of SWA now! I am an employee" (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧  I mean I often found a glass of water on the lecturer's desk and at that time, I did not imagine I will get something similar someday (At Indian Embassy, I have to bring my own tumbler but I can...

Discipline

Hi Guys Sorry I did not update last week Actually I almost did not update today Then I began realized: once I forgave my self because I did not update I am lazy to write And even look for inspiration to write It started to become habit It is not good I have to discipline my self I have to write Even a litt...

My Way of Shopping

On Sunday, 17th August, I went to hypermart. I actually planned to buy one thing: cereal, but I end up buy seven thing : various snacks plus cereal. When I go into cashier, I remembered my friend Ria said that she puzzled with my way to decide whether buy something or not and she also considered it is funny She laugh at me when I pick one thing and said "Hey, it's been a long time since the last...

My Funny Step Father

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Amazed

Now, everytime I saw people when commute from lodge to workplace, I often amazed that there are so many people and I wonder what their background? What story that they have in life? It made me curious and realize that it is beyond my capacity to know those things. Allahu Akbar! Praise for Allah! How great is the power of God and how little of ...

My First Day at Work and Three Investigators

Alhamdulillah :D I started  working in SWA Magazine as Research Executive on 4th August On my first day, I was very nervous and anxious. I did not have a good night sleep, I woke up several times Plus I got flu and it made feel uncomfortable When I try to take picture of me on first day of work, I shocked that I found my self frowned (Oh no! I delete it instantly) I don't want to be remembered...

Hare and Tortoise

Some time ago my friend share status "I may walk slowly but I never walk backwards" His words reminded me of the story of Hare and the Tortoise How tortoise can actually beat the hare in the race, although Hare is superior physically. I think the tortoise won because he is consistent. In addition to consistent, the tortoise is persistent, he finished the race. He did not despair and give up. While...

MSC Gathering: The Truth

Finally on 19th July, MSC (a complete one) held gathering after for a long time I did not meet. Hana Talita treated MSC plus Niken for her birthday to Pizza Express. Yeay! Alhamdulillah :D I missed them so much Hana Talita has reserved the place before so we did not have to be waited to be seated. Thank you Hana Talita. :D We actually reserved the place for 5.30 pm, but  The Pizza...

Lesson Learned from Princess Hours (Goong)

Sometime ago I was watching Korean drama : Princess Hours or Goong  I watched in 2006 for the first time, and at that time, the lesson that I got is be honest to yourself and say what you feel, if you are sad, said that you are sad, and if you are happy, say you are happy. If you do not say  what you really feel and think, sometimes people will not understand what we really feel and...